Lonely I partly adapted from Skunkredhair Skunkie
Lonely I, with my tears,
Lonely I, sorrow and hate,
Lonely I, is this my fate?
Lonely I, by myself in this queer room
Lonely I, with no choice but to submit myself to this doom
Lonely I, away from the emotionless community
Lonely I, away from my childhood friends
Lonely I, no one to understand me
Lonely I, no one whom I can convey my thoughts
Lonely I, pain in me
Lonely I, till I escape this community
This poem is about a guy who is unhappy living in his own community, unhappy with what he has to do everyday; upset with the fact that everybody around him is willingly submitting to the reality that the community is colorless and monotonous.
In the first stanza, the speaker regards his living environment as dark, boring, and everyday as uneventful as every other day. He despises his community, wanting to change his future, to live in another place with freedom, with people and things around him to bring color in his life. From his tone, we can tell that the speaker is extremely fed up with the fact that he has to continue staying in his community, he expresses extreme hate. He cries to relieve his frustration, his loathing for the community. If one really hates the place he lives in, one would feel extremely depressed, and cross, that life is meaningless and such a failure, which is exactly what the speaker is feeling in the poem.
In the second stanza, the speaker hates to be alone in a room all by himself, different from the rest of the community, isolated from his friends. He knows that he has no choice, and that it is imminent to do this everyday, he despises what he has to do and wishes to change the surroundings, to bring about change in his living environment.
In the third stanza, he seems to be the only one who has emotions, while the others do not, even his childhood friends. He tries to tell the people around him what he is feeling, to express his discontentment and hate but nobody ever seems to know what he is trying to say. He feels that his not being able to communicate his thoughts is very torturous. The people seem to be avoiding him, filling him with sadness and anger, making him have the desire to escape his living environment.
This speaker’s situation is exactly the same as that of Jonas. In The Giver, certain duties require isolation; an example is that of Jonas’s, he receives his training away from the majority of the people. To gain knowledge and wisdom, for instance is to separate oneself from those without such abilities.
Jonas has to be in isolation, because he possesses an ability that the others in the community do not have, the ability to see colors, and the ability to feel. This is in part because learning requires solitary reflection, and in part because it is hard to identify with anyone who doesn’t share the same wisdom.
He tried putting his palm on Lily’s back, to transmit a memory of roaming elephants that once existed in the community to her. However, she immediately complained that Jonas was hurting her. In another moment, Jonas tried transmitting a happy memory to Asher, and he too complained that Jonas was hurting him. After he was chosen to be the receiver, Jonas's friends gradually left him, as they could not understand his thoughts and actions. This tells us that not many people in the community do not have feelings and are unwilling to accept new things, that seem incredulous to them. This identifies with the speaker, when he was furious that nobody understood him, and he had to be left all by himself.
After Jonas watched his father release the newborn twin unemotionally, he realized that the people in this community do not treasure life, do not know the real meaning of life and were cruel. He could no longer live in a community with people who do not feel anything, nor understand him. he could no longer tolerate the rigid and unreasonable rules set in the community, such as having to apologize after making a very trivial mistake, having to thank one for his instructions. he was sick and tired of all these Sameness. He wanted to have choices extremely badly. he wanted to wake up one day and be able to decide even the most rudimental things like what he wanted to eat. He needed to go somewhere where his transmitted memory exists.
Hence, when the giver discussed plans on escaping the community with him, Jonas was extremely happy and excited, because he no longer had to face the emotionless people in the community, who do not understand him at all. Jonas’s thinking is exactly the same as the speaker as the speaker said that he would be in pain till he escapes the community. Being isolated also increases the pain suffering; with no one to share the weight, the burden is much greater, hence making Jonas feel the pain in him.